#103698　　idk it\'s my first time here HANDLE:　greenguava　DATE:　2024年11月17日　10時8分 i really don't know what really is this website im curious about it.. and i want to talk about my daily life , experiences , mood and everything i want someone to listen to me i think I'll be writing all of them here maybe someone's gonna see them and read them one day ... even though i dont really care i feel if i write here it's going to replace the 'someone' for me and I'd feel satisfied ¯⁠⁠(⁠◉⁠‿⁠◉⁠)⁠/⁠¯ [ REPLY ]

#103697　　idk it\'s my first time here HANDLE:　greenguava　DATE:　2024年11月17日　10時8分 i really don't know what really is this website im curious about it.. and i want to talk about my daily life , experiences , mood and everything i want someone to listen to me i think I'll be writing all of them here maybe someone's gonna see them and read them one day ... even though i dont really care i feel if i write here it's going to replace the 'someone' for me and I'd feel satisfied ¯⁠⁠(⁠◉⁠‿⁠◉⁠)⁠/⁠¯ [ REPLY ]

#103696　　Flying HANDLE:　Chrysanthemum　DATE:　2024年11月16日　23時5分 I wish I had the enthusiasm to pursue my dream job. I don't even know if it's truly my dream to begin with. I have so many life choices, yet none of them seems correct. I don't live a hard or struggling life, I have a hobby and my own reason to live, yet I'm so lost. I wish to know my fate, how my life will go, and how it will end, so I don't have to pursue my dream anymore. Is it laziness? Or a lack of passion? [ REPLY ]

#103695　　Of growing up HANDLE:　arabesqueoftheoldestson　DATE:　2024年11月16日　22時54分 Earlier this year. Children’s day. I have been tasked to come up with some questions so that they can use it for an interview. Mine was, - When you were a kid, you wanted to grow up. But when you are finally an adult, do you want to go back and be a kid again? Thinking about it now. I am soon to turn 18 years old. Am I an adult? Or am I a kid still? Or I am neither? Such a confusing age. Growing up can be scary. I said to myself, a long time ago. That I want to go back in time, back when I was 14 again. Because I know what to do now. To think of many things that I could have done. And so so many things that I could have avoided. Maybe we didn’t need to face all the pain so we could grow up. [ REPLY ]

#103694　　My Guitar Lily HANDLE:　hitoshi　DATE:　2024年11月16日　21時35分 I've finally named my guitar, It is my third one. The first one was Carol, the second was Horizon. The names came to me instantly when I got them, but this time was different. I tried to force it, think of all different kinds of names and nicknames, but nothing felt right. After a while I gave up. A few months passed, still nothing. But yesterday I was laying on my bed with it by my side, it almost felt as laying next to a lover. I was tired and barely able to think, listening to a soft melody that reminded me of ether, as I slowly melted into a comforting feeling of being half-asleep, and.. “Lily” This name ringed in my head softly, covering my lazy thoughts as a silky sheet… And that’s how it came to be - GLORY LILY!!! GLORY ETHER!!! [ REPLY ]

#103693　　Re: ichicko aoba HANDLE:　Chrysanthemum　DATE:　2024年11月16日　21時33分 304 wrote: > has anyone ever listened to ichicko aoba's cover of arabesque? it came up on my recommended on youtube once, and it made me cry so much and i physically felt it tearing my heart. it really captures the ether but i never hear anyone talk about it as much as they do with mitski's. so my recommendation for anyone who wants to! The feeling of 2 ether combined. Reminds me of my first time listening to Arabesque, I wish I could listen to Lily's music for the first time again. [ REPLY ]

#103692　　Thought HANDLE:　Nisemono　DATE:　2024年11月16日　21時26分 lately i feel my ether starting to run out... [ REPLY ]

#103691　　Re: U HANDLE:　ika　DATE:　2024年11月16日　20時2分 U wrote: > I'm gonna kill myself I realised like neverending horizon it seems, there lies eternal purpose, those transient purposes that we tried to find keeps changing there direction and so do we, but when we stop, settle down, resist the change, the purpose keep moving on far away while we remain still, at that point how hard we try find purpose it will still be no found cause we are not accepting the loss of perfectionism and fighting the challenge to move, it is a time where we feel lost, where we desire to die and in that moment nobody can help us but us. it is well said some people run away by packing their bags and some people run away by staying at a place for too long. [ REPLY ]

#103690　　U HANDLE:　U　DATE:　2024年11月16日　9時38分 I'm gonna kill myself [ REPLY ]

#103689　　Re: saddest scene in all about lily chou chou HANDLE:　304　DATE:　2024年11月16日　6時4分 nihil wrote: > what do you guys think was the saddest scene(s) in the movie? when tsuda was flying the kites. it gave me a false sense of hope almost i thought she would be okay. but then she wasn’t and her comment about wanting to fly too broke me. [ REPLY ]

#103688　　soleil aime HANDLE:　403　DATE:　2024年11月16日　5時52分 i’m drowning. someone help me! [ REPLY ]

#103687　　ichicko aoba HANDLE:　304　DATE:　2024年11月16日　5時47分 has anyone ever listened to ichicko aoba's cover of arabesque? it came up on my recommended on youtube once, and it made me cry so much and i physically felt it tearing my heart. it really captures the ether but i never hear anyone talk about it as much as they do with mitski's. so my recommendation for anyone who wants to! [ REPLY ]

#103686　　nature and writing HANDLE:　304　DATE:　2024年11月16日　5時44分 my favourite thing to do is to sit in the park near my school, or the forest near my house when my head gets too loud. or taking a walk near the river stream, until my lungs hurt, which isn't hard to achieve either. it's not as peaceful as countryside would be, but it's also the slight respite i get from everything. or writing, writing, until my hands hurt and then ripping it to shreds so it's out of sight, out of mind. i hate my mind, it's been plaguing me for my life, and i haven't even lived a long life yet. i miss the first time i listened to lily's music, it made me feel so much emptier. [ REPLY ]

#103685　　thought HANDLE:　N　DATE:　2024年11月16日　5時1分 this place seems interesting. [ REPLY ]

#103684　　random thought HANDLE:　vtyna　DATE:　2024年11月16日　4時48分 it’s kinda crazy that the angsty teens who once wrote here are full-on adults now... i wonder how they’re doing and if they still visit this site. how long has it been since you first wrote here, guys? [ REPLY ]

#103683　　Re: kill me HANDLE:　bitterpearl　DATE:　2024年11月16日　4時29分 soojin wrote: > both of my parents are addicted to hard drugs. hey, if you want to talk, feel free to email me. i'm here to listen addisonmartin@student.centralisd.com [ REPLY ]

#103682　　to star HANDLE:　soojin　DATE:　2024年11月16日　4時25分 ai hope you read this. for some reason i could not reply back but i just wanted to say thank you so much! i didn’t think anyone would reply. this really made my day thank you again! it really helps to know someone else has been through something similar. it’s hard right now, but i’ll try to focus on nurturing myself like you said. [ REPLY ]

#103681　　Re: eh idk HANDLE:　star　DATE:　2024年11月16日　3時19分 soojin wrote: > i havent been to school for almost 2 month. the first month i was very sick and then we had 2 week holiday but because of my anxiety i cant go back. it has been 2 weeks now since the fall break ended... i am so scared lol... every morning i wake up and cry... i want to throw up... i have heavy chest pain and because of all that stress my eye started twitching... anytime i get an email i think it is from my teacher... my heart races whenever someone calls my mom... i wish i didnt have anxiety it is ruining my life... I'm very sorry for you, I faced a similar challenge last year and while it may feel overwhelming now, remember that this time is an opportunity to nurture yourself. Stay hopeful, for you are never truly alone in this journey. [ REPLY ]

#103680　　나는 타이틀을 만드는 데 능숙하지 않습니다 HANDLE:　soojin　DATE:　2024年11月16日　0時8分 여기 한국인이 있나요? [ REPLY ]

#103679　　나는 타이틀을 만드는 데 능숙하지 않습니다 HANDLE:　soojin　DATE:　2024年11月16日　0時5分 학교에서 똑똑해질 수 있는 팁을 주세요 ㅋㅋ [ REPLY ]